I don't really know how to talk to people right now...even my friends. Life just hurts to much, but I have to here for everyone. I've always felt that I'm the one everyone goes to, but I never really had anyone to go to when I needed someone. Now that I have people to go to, it just feels...awkward. I'm rather hesitant to go to them, only because I'm so used to not talking about things. But even having people to go to when I need to talk about something, to help me work through something, somehow I still don't feel as if I have anyone I can go to so I can celebrate the good things that happen. Even if good things haven't been happening lately. Or maybe they have and I just can't see them. I'm sure they have but they're just so small I can't see them...but I want to see them. I'm just so stuck on all the shit that's been going on. It's so hard not to be, though. Though that's really no excuse....
Okay. I'm going to force myself to find a few good things that have happened as of late. I got two new mice; Riku and GIR. I also got a new camera. And I made a new friend who lives very close to me. I've also been reconnecting with old friends that I've missed a lot.
I suppose there really is a lot more good going on than I realize. It's just not happening as much as I'd like, but I really can't control that. Not that I want to deal with shit, but the more bad that happens, the more I'll appreciate the good, right?
And concerning the emancipation, I think it's best for me if I get out of here...I feel awful for leaving Jennie, but being here is all around bad for me. Stress levels are getting higher and higher and the headaches are getting worse and worse.
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